I Live!

If you know me, you know that I am very close with my siblings. A while back the lord gave me a burden for my sister. About 2 years ago my husband was out of town and I was staying with my grandma. As I was about to go to sleep, I remember receiving a call from my dad telling me that my sister was on her way to the hospital and that she tried to commit suicide. My first feeling was irritation because I knew this was a spiritual battle. I remember not being able to feel the emotions of almost losing a sister right away because I was so focused on what she was encountering. I remember telling my mom in the hospital that we didn't have time to react right away emotionally because of what was going on spiritually. That same night I found out that my sister was going to have to go to a mental institution. While she was in the institution I couldn't always visit her, so writing became a line of communication. When I did go to see her, sometimes it was hard just leaving her there. I remember her calling me the first night ,terrified because of the environment that she was now in. Now, the only way to describe the way that I felt is "my baby sister was calling me for help' and there was nothing I could do, but continue to pray!

I started to think back as to how? How did I not see this coming? When trying to help her in my good motives, was I too religious? Did I always show her Gods love? Over time, I began to watch my sister transform. I have witnessed my sister completely give her life over to Jesus and seen the fruit produced. She has always been beautiful, but her true beauty now shines clear. She's started an organization called "I live the movement" .weareilivethemovement.com She now speaks all over, as well as on social media sharing her story and telling her testimony. I am so proud of her and who she is becoming! If I could say one thing that I have learned from her hands on it's forgiveness. Sometimes when our loved ones are on the wrong path, we unconsciously begin to treat them the same way, even after they've changed. My sister is one of the most giving people that I know, and as I stated before her life has completely transformed. Her change has forced me to come out of that old habit. It's a habit that we all need to be conscious of. Looking back now, I remember as a child dealing with spiritual attacks. I never attempted suicide, but I remember being approached by it. I was in my kitchen washing a cutting knife, and the thought came to mind to just slit my wrist. So many times thoughts come and we just try not to think them anymore, but we don't deal with them. Thankfully I had parents and a pastor who helped me and prayed me through. I was able to conquer and deal with it for me, but what about those after me? My sister? I know that we cannot control everything, but sometimes we can prevent things. Now whenever you pray ,

for yourself and you get free from it, pray for those after you, those connected to you.

Sometimes when praying for loved ones, we feel like our prayers aren't being answered. The bible says that "the prayers of the righteous availeth much". (James 5:16) Righteous, meaning good, morally right, excellent. Are you living a life that's strong and stable enough to be able to fight for the ones you love? David couldn't fight Goliath without God, and we cant't conquer evil without him either. Last year I got to finally process the fact that i could have almost lost my baby sister. I cried, not in sadness, but grateful that she's still here. If you have someone you're fighting for, keep praying :)