Take a look!

Sometimes things happen to us and we question, and wonder why? Why me? I remember when I had the miscarriage that I previously wrote about, that was something I asked God for a long time. But why not you? There are some things that we will not know until we get to Heaven. We have to learn through every situation to remember that God works all things for the good of them that love him who are the called according to his purpose.(Romans 8:28)

See the good in things. For a long time when this happened to me, I thought about that night. How I laid in the hospital bed full of hurt and embarrassment. There quickly came a point however, when God stopped me, because I thought every year around this time it will be hard for me because of what happened. He said "No", do not make this day a memorial. (preserving and honoring the memory). A lot of times we memorialize our past circumstances and in essence we worship those things because we take time to remember our hurt, instead of remembering our deliverance.

So today I take a look back and smile. I smile because even though having a miscarriage was something very hard for me to go through, God allowed me to go through it. Things could have been so much worse. I could have been depressed, remained anxious, fearful, and those things could have lead to so many things. I smile because even though that happened to me, I can pray for others who might be going through, or have been through the same thing. I smile because God trusted me enough to allow it to happen.

When I was a child I used to sometimes laugh in church when I heard someone say "when I think of the goodness of Jesus and all he's done for me, my soul cries out Hallelujah". But now there are times when I do the same thing, and I understand. God doesn't want us to look back at our circumstances and be depressed, or take ourselves back to that place we were in mentally, but remember how he delivered us.

No matter what it is you've been through, a loss, an abortion, miscarriage, accident, anything, if you haven't allow God to heal and deliver you. Then you will be able to take a look back and smile.